Justin Bieber revealed his tumultuous and troubling past in a touching tribute to his wife, Hailey Baldwin. The award-winning singer has gone through a very bumpy road, which ultimately led him to getting married to the love of his life. Through all the rumors and issues that dogged the happily married couple in their first year, Bieber and Baldwin remain tightly connected to each other.

In the past year, the “I Don’t Care” singer has repeatedly been linked to his ex-girlfriend Selena Gomez. The rumors placed the two singers’ previous relationship as the catalyst for an alleged divorce to his wife. Bieber proved all the rumormongers wrong with a very sweet message placing Baldwin at the forefront of his renewed life.

Earlier today, the former child star posted a tell-all essay on his Instagram. He spoke lengthily about his past issues and all the challenges he faced along the way.

“It’s hard to get out of bed in the morning with the right attitude when you are overwhelmed with your life, your past, job, responsibilities, emotions, your family, finances, your relationships.” he wrote. “Sometimes it can even get to the point where you don’t want to live anymore … I can fully sympathize with you.”

He continued by explaining the conundrum of becoming a child star, how he was irresponsible and ungrateful with the blessings he had received. “I started doing pretty heavy drugs at 19 and abused all of my relationships,” he shared.

“I became resentful, disrespectful to women, and angry. I became distant to everyone who loved me, and I was hiding behind a shell of a person that I had become.”

In the middle of his seemingly hopeless situation, he found a reason to keep fighting and keep striving to be a better version of himself: his marriage to Baldwin. This tribute to his wife comes close to their first-year anniversary as a married couple.

“Luckily god blessed me with extraordinary people who love me for me,” Bieber wrote. “Now I am navigating the best season of my life: ‘MARRIAGE!’ Which is an amazing crazy new responsibility.”

He concluded his lengthy message inspiring others to keep fighting no matter what challenges they encounter. “BE KIND > BE BOLD TODAY AND LOVE PEOPLE TODAY NOT BY YOUR STANDARDS BUT GOD’S PERFECT UNFAILING LOVE,” he ended his message.

Justin Bieber and Hailey Baldwin Justin Bieber and wife Hailey Baldwin spotted out in West Hollywood together. Getty Images/James Devaney