The feud between Taylor Swift and Kim Kardashian may have been three years ago already but Swift remains unforgiving. The singer is still angry at what the “Keeping Up with the Kardashians” subjected her to, including humiliation and embarrassment, which could have turned fatal for others if they suffered the same.

After being locked in a nasty feud because of Kanye West’s “Famous” lyrics, things have quieted down between Taylor Swift and Kim Kardashian. One would have thought the singer already forgotten the feud now but in an interview with Vogue magazine, it is apparent that this has not happened yet. Swift not only have not forgotten the feud yet but also have not forgiven the other party. She said that what she experienced because of Kardashian cannot be understood by many.

“A mass public shaming, with millions of people saying you are quote-unquote canceled, is a very isolating experience,” Swift shared to the magazine. “I don’t think there are many people who can actually understand what it’s like to have millions of people hate you very loudly.”

It can be remembered that the feud started with Swift slamming West for referring to her as a “b***h” in one of his songs, which prompted Kardashian to slam back, by branding Swift a snake on Twitter. Because the Kardashians, especially Kim, have such massive following on social media, this did some great damage. Kardashian did not stop here, she also exposed videos of Swift allegedly secretly signing off on West’s lyrics. Kardashian’s fans quickly attacked Swift, letting the harmful hashtags #TaylorSwiftIsASnake and #TaylorSwiftIsCanceled trend.

The effect of these hashtags on Swift cannot be undermined. According to Swift, it became a “very isolating experience for her.” She even said that it has an effect of being called to commit suicide. “When you say someone is canceled, it’s not a TV show,” Swift said described of her experience. “It’s a human being. You’re sending mass amounts of messaging to this person to either shut up, disappear, or it could also be perceived as, ‘Kill yourself.'”

She further added that every day since then was a struggle, even though it was obvious that she is starting to recover with some new hit singles being released, with some about the feud

“When you’re going through loss or embarrassment or shame, it’s a grieving process with so many micro emotions in a day,” she said. “That was horrible. Why did that have to happen? What am I supposed to take from this other than mass amounts of humiliation?” She added. 

Taylor Swift Taylor Swift on stage at the 2019 iHeartRadio Music Awards, which broadcasted live on FOX at the Microsoft Theater on March 14, 2019, in Los Angeles, California. Jeff Kravitz/FilmMagic for iHeartMedia